From Meth and Heroin to Sober and Free

My name is Roxie Landon.  I have been sober and in recovery since December 20, 2011.  Today, I love my life!  Before December 20, 2011, however, I was completely hopeless.  I thought my life would never change.  I believed the lie I told myself, I wasn’t good enough.  I graduated high school at the top of my class, and I could have gone to college and had a promising future.  I chose a life of drugs and alcohol instead.  During my addiction, I had two beautiful children, I didn’t use drugs while I was pregnant, but the moment I had each of them, I continued to party.  I have used every drug you could possibly think of, but in the end I became an IV drug user; a trip that lasted for ten long years.  I walked away from my kids.  I said they were better off without me, but the truth was I thought I was better off without them.  My family did not want anything to do with me.  I lived a life of drugs and crime.  Heroin and meth became most important to me.  I have been to jail, a couple of treatment centers, and then finally NEOCAP, which is a prison alternative, a court ordered Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, locked down, treatment facility.  At NEOCAP I finally surrendered! 

When I left NEOCAP in June, 2012, I got busy working a 12-step program, and I stayed sober.  In May, 2013 I was involved in a near fatal car accident.  I was in a coma for three weeks, I had five traumatic brain injuries, and I was in the hospital for two months.  I got out of the hospital July 24, 2013, in a wheelchair.  On September 19, 2013, my boyfriend, whom I was in the accident with, died on a motorcycle.  While I was in the hospital I accepted God in my heart.  I believe it was then that it finally happened because He knew what was to come.  Without God in my life I do not think I would have made it through that year sober.  People say “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.”  I think God does give us more than we can handle, on our own, so that we learn to depend on Him and the people He places in our lives. 

I also believe there is a positive to every negative that we experience.  When I came home from the hospital my daughter came to live with me at my mom’s house, for the first time in five years.  Three months after my boyfriend died I got to see and talk to my son for the first time in five years.  I have been unable to work or drive since the accident, but I have never gone without.  I have my family back in my life.  I am again part of my children’s lives, and I have a God of my own understanding.  I never imagined saying this, but I would not change a thing! 

Today, I have been sober for five years, and I am engaged to a wonderful man that I believe God put in my life.  I was baptized in September, 2016 and I am enrolled in an online degree program at Ohio Christian University.  It is my hope to become either a Chemical Dependency Counselor, or if it is God’s will, a Probation Officer.  I want to serve those who are going through the same things I have experienced.  There is so much death occurring because of drug overdoses.  I know how it feels to be hopeless, and I want others to know there is a better way.  Like I said, from an IV, hapless meth and heroin addict to a sober woman living happy and free. 

Roxie Landon
Recovery Date:  December 20, 2011
Concord Township Ohio
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